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Well I've sort of been avoiding actually writing on here again. WE looked at Fox again and he was just gorgeous, and we worked out how we could afford him etc/ Then suddenly mum goes "no we can't afford him, we can offer her less though and see if she accepts" so naturally Nicky doesn't accept it, and says that if this pushy woman from Melbourne offers her less or falls through she would think about it./ Naturally pushy woman didn't offer her less and so now the horse of my dreams is sold to a lady Gendy describes as "pretty fat and useless" and I am heartbroken over it.

But now we are going to go looking at some other horses so BLA cause none of them are going to be as good as that one and yes so I'm just going to stop talking about it now.

I went to Macarthur, I was in prenovice. The dressage wasn't bad (14th outa 33 riders.. so just above midfield!) Then went into showjumping and was looking very good over first two fences, stopped at the third, I whacked him and came around again and he stopped again, so I was eliminated (two stops in showjumping is now elimination)... I did cross country anyway and went clear and two seconds over time (pretty good cause I took a long route) but hey Megan ended up fifth in her second prelim ever, first on the horse she's riding now. So she had a very good day. I know the people who read this probably have no clue what that all meant but too bad, you're reading it anyway!

Umm well I guess school starts on Tuesday, which just stinks but oh well you get that. Apparently my dad wanted to take me fro a driving lesson thing today but I don't want to go with him so I said I had schoolwork to do. I actually was doing schoolwork before I started writing this.

I also finished that story, and covered the exercise book. I'm quite proud of it, I wrote a blurb and everything tehehehehehehe. So now I'm going to start writing another one! Tehehehehehe. Anyways I should get back to my work now, so tata!

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Haha I never say awesome, but this girl in my group at mirrabooka kept saying it, and it seems to turn up everywhere now! including that cliche of a movie! Anyway I tried Fox yesterday, and in Jess's style I'll say he was AWESOME! lol no he really was!

He was absolutely completely incredible and i love him and I want to go ride him again! lol! Then I want to buy him and take him home so I can ride him whenever I want, then start competing him and I am completely obsessed by this horse now. Poor Darcy.. But it's ok cause I'm not selling him yet and I still have a few more comps I want to go to with him. So never fear, Darcy will not be neglected!!!

Anyway I'll shut up about Fox now cause I can hear everyone who reads this going "shut up about Fox already, nobody cares" yes that's right, I can hear your thoughts!

Well onto other matters, I am trying to make myself interested in reading Oliver Twist now, it's not particularly interesting but oh well. I've read nearly a hundred pages, only two hundred more to go! Lol!

Right now I am finally working on my extension two. I had a burst of inspiration and wrote the epilogue bit, and now I'm fixing up my prologue, and then I'll write some more of Section 1. Tehe I've seperated it into three sections plus a prologue and epilogue. So Mr Gates told us to do a third of it these holidays as a draft, but I would rather have my whole first draft done so I only have to spend the next three terms editing it and making it just right. More time for riding if I get all my schoolwork more than up to date these holidays, or that's my theory anyway!

So I should really stop writing on here and actually go do the work. Ciao!

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I forgot to mention in the last bit, I think I'm a little addicted to Missy Higgins.. I listened to the CD three times on the way to mirrabooka (lovely 6 hour drive!) then listened to it just about the whole way back, and I've already listened to it twice so far today, its really pathetic!!! lol anyway that was all I wanted to say. ciao

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Tehe well I am going to try Nicky's horse tomorrow. He sounds sooo fantastic but I don't know how we are going to get $15,000!!! Mum and I were coming up with some ideas yesterday. I have $3,700 at the moment, and my grandmother was going to give me money to buy a car in the future, but this is more important to me than a car, problem is I don't know how much she will give me. I also probably have to sell my piano, which is OK, I don't use it any more... so that's $4,000 approx. We are also going to have a garage sale, cause I have lots of horse stuff I need to sell, and there's heaps of stuff in the garage that we really don't need. I wonder if it will all add up to $15,000?? Probably not. I know I haven't even tried him yet, but from what I have heard I don't see how I wouldn't like him...

The good part about all these ideas is that it means I wouldn't have to sell Darcy until I was absolutely ready to, and I like the idea of that a lot better! It also means that whatever money we get from him would probably go towards buying me a car (if I ever get my Ps that is!)

Anyway off the topic of horses, cause I know it's boring for anyone who reads this, I went to see that Hilary Duff movie with Wilson and Steph last night. LOL I knew I didn't like Hilary Duff to start off with but geezzzzzz... Anyways I'll try not to be too mean cause some people liked it *cough cough* , but it kinda sucks when something is meant to be sad and it just seems corny. Tut tut! Anyway!!!

I have also discovered that Wilson's friends from her old school are the most creative bunch of people I've ever (not) met. Tehehehehehe that didn't make sense, but I wanted to fit it into a crappy cliche, and that was the only way it worked. Anyway yes they are, and I think they would have to be the best group of friends ever, which kinda makes me think our group must be pretty sucky after having them! lol I'm sure we're not, but seriously!! Wow! lol Tehehe just to add something completely random to this otherwise insane paragraph I'm wearing my new socks! lol

I'm also trying to do the schoolwork I promised myself I would do. I was really proud of how much I had done until I looked through my books etc and realized how much I haven't done!! I've been so busy writing this story (up to page 90 now) that I've neglected everything else! Like I promised myself I would have a first draft of my extension two and all I have is two pages of crap!!!! GEEEZZZZZZZZZZ Not to mention extension one.. Then only thing I have completely finished working on is maths, and I finished that in the first week of the holidays!

So I was doing my extension one before I decided to write on this, but now I should go back to it cause I know I'm just procrastinating again. Cya!

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Wow! I just came back from the Mirrabooka Summer Camp. It's for juniors in eventing (i.e under 18 years of age) and basically you have six hour and a half lessons, in three days with 6 different instructors. These are the elite riders in the sport. For example I had lessons from Rebel Morrow, who was the highest placed competitor for Australia in the eventing at Athens, then the next day a lesson with Sammi Mcleod, who was short listed for Athens, and competed overseas last year for Australia. It was absolutely incredible. It was really really really inspiring for me. I didn't end up doing the Mini ODE (one day event) on the fourth day cause I'm a wimp, and also it takes 6 hours to get there, and we wouldn't have been able to leave before 3:30 if I had..

I was really happy with my horse, he was really really good, but I also talked to Nicky about a horse that she has for sale cause she is moving to America. She is Gendy's sister, so Gendy told me about the horse and said he was something really special and would suit me. Only problem is that he is $15,000.. which I clearly do not have. Gendy told me he isn't worth more than $10,000 though, which I still don't have. If I want to buy him I have to sell Darcy. So I'm a bit stuck. I don't want to sell darcy cuase he is so sensitive and it would be hell trying to find someone to buy him, but I know I need a new horse and this one could take me to the top. At the moment I think I will go try this horse, then ask Gendy to find someone suitable for Darcy. Hopefully I'll be able to find someone I think can do well with him and I won't feel too bad about selling him. I'll also offer to buy him back when they decide to retire him or sell him again, cause hopefully by then I will have the money to do that.

So anyway I'm a bit stuck at the moment as far as horses go, I still need a sign from Darcy that it's time to give him up, because I couldn't live with myself if I sold him before it was time. Anyway I think I'll go now, I'm just really happy about Mirrabooka and can't wait to go again next year! Tata!

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I think it is the month of bruises in my family. My dad recently crashed my cousins dirt bike and has two nice large bruises on his shoulder and on his leg.. then this morning my horse decides to kick me in the leg.. the side of my thigh is just red and slowly moving on to purple. Grrr I hate bruises! I shouldn't complain though, a) it wasn't the same leg that molly kicked (i still have the scar) and b) it wasn't in the stomach like the other time with molly, so I wasn't winded, and although I was initially knocked over, I could actually breathe and get up to smack him.

So needless to say I'm not in the greatest mood, because we leave for Mirrabooka Summer School tomorrow (its a riding thing) and I'm in the top group and now I can hardly walk, let alone ride!! GRRRR stupid animals have the worst timing!!

I'm also pissed off because my phone still isn't working. I rang them yesterday and they said it would be done in the next 48 hours again (which is what they said last time) so I'm kind of wondering how many 48 hours it is going to take because it actually works. I don't really want to have to take both phones to Mirrabooka, I would rather only have to worry about one!

Now I think I'll do some school work. Maybe summarize my hospitality text book and finish highlighting stuff in BNW. Then go back to writing my story thing. I'm up to page 72. Tehehe I'm going to run out of book soon! I'm still feeling really guilty though, cause I know I should be writing my extension 2 but I just cant get myself out of that "mindspace" so I haven't done any more than I had in the first week of the holidays.

Tehe tonight I'm seeing the spongebob movie. lol I'm happy about it! It's meant to be a birthday thing with my dad, but peh I just want to see the movie!

So I'm going to go now, and begin my highlighting. Wish me luck! tata!

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Well, yeah it was my birthday yesterday. I didn't get anything as such. My grandmother gave me money and a jumperish thing.. and Michelle had already given me two books. I did get a new phone, but that was just a coincidence that my plan runs out on my birthday every year, and anyway I'm paying half the bill so I don't think that really counts. Oh mum did buy me the holy grail dvd while we were out, which was pretty cool..

Anyway I finally had a lesson with Gendy today! :D I haven't had one since October and I really really really missed it. I'm so disappointed though, cause her sister is moving to America, and selling all her horses, apparently there's a horse in there though which is incredible, but he's $10,000. Gendy reckons he could get me to the top... So I'm hoping that if she doesn't get the money straight away she'll think of lowering the price a bit.. (Actually I only have $3400 total, so it would have to be lowering the price a LOT.) But he sounds fantastic, I'm considering trying him anyway, even if I can't afford him, just for the sake of it.

Anyways ummm yeah, I'm still writing my story thing, up to page 48.. Bla bla bla.. Oh, I was in a book store yesterday, looking for Lucky Man, and I saw all these books about TV series, and there was one for buffy.. it looked quite good (if you like buffy). There was also one with Friends etc. tehehe

OK well I'm going to continue writing, and I'm also considering starting to type this up, so that when I finish it I can start straight away on another one.. But not based on her stories, something original. Tata

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OK well I'm back from Lennox. I probably shouldn't write too much, but unfortunately I do have a lot to write, and I'm not too sure where to start. I think I will start with the holiday.

We got picked up by Michelle at 6:30 am on New Years Eve. She already had Rowan and Lindsay (Rowan's dad) in the car, so fitting me and my mum, plus our luggage was a bit of a squish. Finally we got it in and took off. We had about 4 stops the whole day (its approx a ten hour trip, driving). We also soon discovered that the middle seat in the back was REALLY uncomfortable.

Anyway I'll skip all the driving, cause although some parts were amusing it was mostly extreme boredom time.. Although I did discover I have the unique (I think it's unique) ability to be able to completely switch off my brain without falling asleep. I had my eyes open (I don't think I blinked much either, cause they were really dry) and sat there for 3 hours without thinking anything. I wasn't asleep, I heard mum and Michelle talking, and could have told you what they said without actually hearing it. It was really weird. Anyway that passed some of the time!

We also had a bit of an evil truck driver, who ran a poor P plate driver off the road among other things, but we saw a police car on the side of the road and reported him. So that was mildly interesting.

When we got there it was OK. The house is really unusual. It would basically be a sqare from the top, but the corners have all been cut out, like there if the corner would have looked like L that usually it was kinda pushed in. I can't explain it. Everything was timber, and none of the walls reached the roof. There was a bottom level where Michelle's dad lives (he's a funny man, but I'll talk about him some other time) and her brother also stays down there when he is working in Ballina. Then the middle level has everything, then there is a small room upstairs from that. It is SO hot there, I really don't take heat well and I just couldn't handle it after a while. It was also really annoying that none of the walls met the ceiling in regards to all the toilet sound effects.. ewwwww...

What else? They have really big killer mozzies... We walked to the beach every day except today (we flew out of the gold coast at 4.. but basically sat around the whole day)... and I bought a pair of swimmers, which I am quite happy about.

I am also using Lennox as my setting for extension two, so I took some pictures and bought a map etc. I also did some highlighting of BNW while I was there, and bought a Charles Dickens book to read for extension one, so I was quite proud of myself as far as school work goes.

OK I'm bored of talking about that for the moment, I'll write more about it tomorrow probably. Anyway I finished reading the last two books in the second series on the way up there, then started writing my own one. I think I talked about doing that on here, but I finally started. It's hand written, in a spare exercise book I took up there. So far I've written 42 pages, which I am extremely proud of. It's going well and I'm so inspired with it. Only problem is I know I should be doing schoolwork or something productive, but if I try and write my extension two I just can't stop thinking about that. I can't read my Dickens book because I can't stop thinking about it. Damnit I'm more obsessed than wilson and steph are about buffy.. And even if I do finish writing it, what will I achieve? Sure I'll be proud, but it's not going to get me a good mark in school.. I could never publish it cause a) it isn't good enough and b) I'm using most of the characters and settings that were made up by Tamora Pierce. Gar! Oh well.

While I was up there, Michelle kept lecturing Rowan about school, and uni etc. I don't blame her really, he does nothing.. but I hate people talking about uni cause it makes me want to go there, only I know I can't afford it, and I know what I really want to do with my life. It would just be nice to do something else too.. I would LOVE to write a movie, or a book.. I would just love to be a writer if I didn't have to have any money to keep horses etc.

While we were in Lennox we went to see the Incredibles, I liked it, but it's not the one I want to talk about. We also saw the Motorcycle Diaries... It sounded crappy to me, and I really didn't want to see it but it was AMAZING. I absolutely loved it. It's a completely true story about two guys who went off on an adventure... they were going to become doctors etc and went to the amazon, where there is a hospital for people with leprosy.. it was one of the most incredible movies I have ever seen... Honestly, the title sounded like shite (dont mind me saying so) but the guys, and their journey was amazing... I would love to be a person who wasn't afraid to stand up for myself, and other people. This man fought with everything he had for justice, and was murdered by the CIA... it was so sad, but so inspiring... Anyway, I recommend it totally.. And now I want to read the book.

I also watched Oprah today (don't laugh, I was nearly crying) she had a "real life heroes" special, because of the movie Ladder 49.. It was incredible, she was talking about this little boy she knew, who was 14 and had a disease that ended up killing him.. but it was just sooo sad... my mum was crying and I was getting close...

So now I have a whole lot of new books I want to read... The first is the Motorcycle Diaries... then Lucky Man (it's about Michael J Fox, and his disease (i cant spell it and I'm not going to try) and Michelle says it's incredible) then I HAVE to read some 19th century stuff before I go back to school. Plus I want to write more of this story.. but I don't want to be as obsessed with it as I am now.

I am thinking about writing something similar, but something I actually make up, so that maybe if I ever get it good enough I can see if I can publish it. Not likely but I don't care, I love writing, and that's what I want to do, as well as my riding.

I think I'll go upstairs now and keep writing, I'm so glad to be home... and tomorrow I'm 17.. although I can't see a real difference... I'm not excited at all.. I mean the only moderately interesting thing that happens is that the contract for my mobile runs out, and I have a slight supsicion this means I won't be able to send or recieve any messages until I get a new one. Oh well, I doubt I'll be missing out on much..

BYEZ! Tehe and sort of hello at the same time..