Oblongulated thoughts...

Friday, May 27, 2005

fax machines

How much fun are fax machines eh? I'm being serious, don't laugh at me!! Oh myyy gooood how damn long does Better Homes & Gardens go for? Seriously, my mum wanted to watch it before I could watch this video thing, and it's been on for HOURS!!!! Hmm lets see, I needed to call Leah at twenty to eight, so it's been on since at least 7:30, that's an hour and a half! Who needs that much of a lifestyle program anyway?
Hmm I'm off to feed the horses, tata!

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

It is a far far better thing that I do than I have ever done...

Haha I'm really into the quotes now eh? Well I'll explain that one, for those of you who don't know it's from A Tale of Two Cities... Cause you see for our extension one assignment we have to watch movies set in or about the nineteenth century.. so I hired about 4 (and borrowed sense and sensibility from wilson).. and so far that one is the only one i have liked, and I'm now a little more interested in reading the book, so that is the explanation behind the quote.. Like it? lol i do!

I was thinking today, cause of the things we were talking about with King Lear, do people actually recognise their own flaws of character? Cause most people recognise flaws in other people's characters but not in their own (or so it seems)... Maybe people do recognise stuff in themselves but they don't mention it cause they think that if they don't then nobody else will notice it...

So here we go, one of the flaws in my character (which I am trying to sort of change) is that I'm one of those people I hate, the ones who will sit around for an hour complaining about something but not actually try and fix it, or not actually do anything more about it than complain. Now seriously I'm trying to change it, but I just want to have a little personal discussion about this topic (and anyone who is reading it has to remember that im not attacking anyone cause I'm like this too, or if i am attacking anyone then I'm also attacking myself).. But seriously, why do people do it??? I have this belief (and I have a feeling i have this belief just to annoy my mother who believes in the "if it's meant to be it will happen theory" and that annoys me) that your life is what you make it, and you can't just wait for something lucky to happen. Personally I know what I want, and I'm going to make it happen, cause I'm sick of letting other people decide for me while I just sit there and wait....

It's what I hate about the feminist thing, which is where this all came from cause mr gates is trying to turn my extension two into some feminist interpretation but i hate feminism!!! Women allowed themselves to be manipulated like men, if you don't like it then what the hell are you complaining to other women for?! Thank the lord there are people like Nora from A Dolls House who actually DO SOMETHING.. if you don't like what's happening change it, or at least try.. If you don't try how can you sit back later and tell someone how terrible it was and how you were so helpless? You weren't helpless! You chose not to help yourself!!!! All those women who said that they couldn't break free, why not? What was stopping them? Society? What's society? A group of people, and half of them are female... Sure they might not like you anymore but who cares, you were trying to break free of a situation you didn't like even though they liked you, so if they don't like you any more aren't you therefore free????????

Just to clarify, feminists aren't the only people who do this, they just happen to be the group that I'm targeting because that's where this whole train of thought came from. See my other example is from a tale of two cities again.. The French Revolution.... I'm not saying it was a good thing, or that the aristocrats got what they deserved or anything like that, and I'm not saying that people should go to such desperate lengths to have things changed....buuuuuut those people were unhappy with their lives and the way their country was being run and they actually DID something.... It may have been wrong or unjust or whatever but who cares, does anyone doubt that they actually took control of their own lives? Are they still sitting around now (in their graves) complaining about how they lived? No cause they changed how they lived! It doesn't matter how long it took, or that they went to extremes at least they stood up for themselves instead of thinking that "if it's meant to be it will happen", well no it damn well won't if nobody bothers to make it happen!!! It's all very well to sit on your ass and wait for someone to overthrow your government, but what if you are complaining one day, and suddenly you look around and realize that everyone else in your country is sitting around with you complaining while the aristocrats continue to believe that you should be able to "eat the grass"?? What do you do then? Well if you are meant to be free it will happen. Bullshit! Those aristocrats will have plenty more kids who will go along believing the same things and all you'll change is the name of the people you are complaining about!!!!!!!!!

My proposition to the world is that if you don't do anything to change a bad situation you have no right to complain about it. And if you do something to change it but you don't succeed then the only thing you have a right to complain about is the fact that you didn't succeed in changing anything. Anyway that is my belief, feel free to contradict and argue with me, I relish it! Goodnight!

Friday, May 20, 2005

nothing comes of nothing

well, that's what I've been doing lately, nothing. Actually interestingly enough tomorrow I'm going to watch that play (King Lear for you uneducated people who didn't recognise the quote)... the 7:30p.m. session at Bondi Pavillion. I sure hope it helps me for english. Otherwise I'll be really pissed off cause it's taken a lot of nagging to get my mum to actually book the tickets..

hmm I haven't been able to ride either, cause of the rain and cause I've been sick, so i finally got on darcy today.. I'm having a jumping lesson on him tomorrow and will ride fox tomorrow too.. You see in four weeks I have Macarthur, where I'm doing one* on darcy and prelim on fox... Very exciting!! Hahha I hope I survive!!!!!

On sunday I'm going to an extension one day, I'm sure it will be absolutely riveting :s na I'm sure it will be ok... I hope... If it's boring I'm gunna be angry (again)...

Did you know I don't understand maths? How stupid does that make me, I do GENERAL and I'm confused about what the hell our teacher is meant to be teaching us. Of course I can't move down a class because "my marks and my rank are too good", so what are they going to do, wait until my marks and my rank are crap, THEN move me down? Move me down right before the trials, or the HSC so that I can't possibly recover? What am I meant to do then Dr Cootis, WHAT?!

Sorry, a bit angry about that... Anyways I should go, I'm meant to be watching Sense and Sensibility, but mum insists she's watching better homes and gardens (who would have thought it was possible to watch TV with your eyes closed?!) anyway apparently I'm not allowed to disturb her because we do everything I want and we never do anything she wants and I'm self-centred and should learn to think of others... Funny isn't it, that's what she said about me doing year 11 and 12, and yet when I'm trying to do an extension one assignment she can still use that as a reason why I can't do it... I really have to come up with a faultless reason like that.. I mean you just can't get past it, it can fit to any circumstance you want... I wonder if I was mother Theresa would she still say that? Probably... It's just a good line and she knows it... There is no argument against it...


Damn...

anyways bye!

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Extension 2

OH DEAR!!!! (Yes that's what I should've had on the back of my jersey, i knooowwwww) I just looked today and realized that if you take out holidays and exams, I have a whole EIGHT weeks to FINISH my extension two. EIGHT WEEKS!!!!!! I AM GOING TO DIE!!!!! Damn people like Stephen who can write theirs in a night! I can't! and I'm screwed!!!!!!!!! SHITTEEYYYDIITTEEYYYYYY!!!!!

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

junior prelim + Extension one + Blessings

Ello ello, well the latest news is i won junior prelim on the weekend on foxy tehehe how cool. I was planning on winning junior prenov but darcy was a little **** so its lucky i took fox!!! Hahahah anyways!!!!!

Also funnily enough today i FINALLY got the extension one thing right!!! YES!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA IM SO HAPPY!!! NO MORE EXTENSION ONE ESSAYS FOR ME!!! NO MORE CONFUSION ABOUT THE INDIVIDUAL IN SOCIETY!!!!! NO MORE EXTENSION ONE WORK!!! WOOOOTTTT!!! Anyways I'll calm down now.. but I'm very excited in case you couldn't tell!!!!!

Also an interesting little fact.. I have never been one for religion, but on saturday morning (the day i won prelim) i had to wake up at 5:45a.m. to a man on TV blessing me...(ironic that people say that's an ungodly hour).. anyway, I've decided that perhaps blessings and religion aren't too bad (considering that i won that event) so that was enlightening for me!

I should go write some extension two, cya!

Thursday, May 05, 2005

ViVa VoCe

Haha looks better when you capitalise every first and third letter eh? Did mine today. Oh mmmmyyy gooodddd thought I was going to be sick all over the table. Holy crap I have never been so nervous... no not nervous.... terrified about something school-related in my life. They were nice and all but holy jesus, its like my worst nightmare of school squished into a twenty minute block!!!! AHHHHHH!!! Lol but at least it's over now, so hopefully they didn't think i was too terrible... oh dear... they probably did.........haha at least i was allowed to sit down, so they couldnt have seen my hands shaking!! tehehehe or my kneecaps.. do everyone's kneecaps shake when theyre nervous or really really cold?
gotta go do english homework tata!

Monday, May 02, 2005

Damn Ridley Scott

I've decided I don't like Ridley Scott. It's like a text that you over analyse, it just becomes a pain and after spending about 4 hours looking for information on what kind of context Ridley Scott could possibly have I don't like the man. How come it is so easy to find information on some guy who was a terrible writer (or so the "literary criticisms" say) and believed in drugs, yet trying to find some reasonable information about a guy who (I'm pretty sure) is still alive is so impossible!? If I had wanted a report on how every one of his movies went at the box office I would have typed "ridley scott+"box office reports" into the search engine!! So damn you Ridley Scott! Please go and make your own site which actually has some usefull information for people who have to talk about your context, cause as far as I can tell from every page about you, you don't have one!!!!

Anyway now that I'm over that. I'm back to being angry at the school. I think I'm going to ask mr gates and mrs mcfadden what more I can do to convince them that I will definately finish my extension two.. Surely I've proved it already?! Actually I find it interesting that the school is making me keep legal studies in case I don't finish my extension two and therefore miss out on my HSC, when my HSC doesn't matter to me at all, and doing legal studies only makes me more certain that I want to leave school now, HSC or no. Interesting that I'm even at school. I am such a wimp and such a push-over. I mean who does school just to make their parents happy? Even if it annoys the hell outa me, but I still don't complain to my mum.. no I complain to people who don't give a damn, who all say "well why don't you just leave then?" ahh but they don't see inside my head where for some reason I must always act in a way which will make my mum happy.. where for some reason I can think up a great argument but never voice it to her... Sometimes I just wish that something will make me angry enough to voice it... I think I need to be really angry, cause at the moment I seem to be able to control my anger too well, and I hate it. I want to be all italian and say exactly what i think about the whole thing, but sadly im a wimp. I don't say anything.

Haha this really is just an "im annoyed so now you're all going to listen to me complain" post isn't it? Sorry, I guess I am just in the mood to complain. Actually I really need to do some work, so tata!