There are people in the world that nobody notices...

and I think I've always been one of them. I dunno, I think I've always tried to make myself one of them, or maybe I didn't but it was just so much easier than trying to make people notice me. Maybe I'm just apathetic. It's funny though cause I never really thought about it much, and then when someone told me that they noticed something was different it was strange. I guess you have people who you expect to notice things about you, and people that you don't. and to be honest there's not many people I expect to notice, or anyone really. It's just weird, cause I think i just realized it's nice to know that people notice you. I'm not complaining, and I'm not really trying to be philosophical or anything. It just honestly never occurred to me today that maybe everyone wants to be noticed, and it never occurred to me how great it feels when you realize that someone notices you, someone you don't expect it from. Lol this is making no sense eh? Well it's something to think about anyway. Tata

Beijing 2008

Wow. I can't believe today. OK so I'm going to write this on here, even though I'm not sure that I should, but honestly I have to say it cause I'm just so excited cause this never occurred to me before.. Me...riding fox.... Beijing 2008... HOW GREAT WOULD THAT BE?! OMG!!! I read this ad thing in the newsletter that the EFA (Equestrian Federation of Australia) sends out, and it was saying that they are looking for horse/rider combinations to be part of a squad, aimed at finding combinations to represent Australia at the Olympics in Beijing.. I know I have a horse good enough for it, and I think I could work to be good enough for it. Hey even if I don't, who cares? It would be the MOST AMAZING experience of my life if I could just get into this squad.. just trying out for the squad.. So I am. Yay! Just wanted to say that, byez!

extension 2

I'm so angry... and upset... and I knewwwww i was going to do badly in my viva voce but seriously!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got my mark back today (in case you couldnt tell) and it sucks... really really sucks.... and as much as i knew it would be bad because i cant speak, i cant explain myself and i was nervous (which i never am so i didn't know what to do about it) but i somehow deluded myself into thinking that maybe i didn't do that badly... some of the comments were that maybe i was having trouble imagining what im talking about.... excuse me, I chose my concept because I understand it all too well and i wanted to say something about it!!! I never wanted to be a feminist or say anything about that, I wanted to talk about something i understand... how can he tell me i don't understand my concept? I LIVE WITH MY DAMN CONCEPT, HOW CAN I NOT UNDERSTAND IT?!?!?!? Sorry, getting a bit angry....

Well I diddo badly, and mr gates WAS looking at me when he said that some people wouldnt be happy with their mark.. well youre DAMN RIGHT im not happy.. not happy at all... which is odd.. I mean i dont really care about school, none of this matters in the scheme of things, but as far as i can see, I used to actually believe i could write reasonably well, and all this process has taught me is that i cant, i cant come up with a good plot and i cant write well... maybe i should have done critical, at least ive always known that i cant write an essay, and there is no way i would have gotten stupid mr gates for it!! How the hell have i deluded myself this whole time into thinking I might actually do well at extension 2? I mean seriously? How have teachers deluded me by telling me i can write... no thats not fair... some of them never told me that... and i cant blame anyone else for this... ive i wasnt so determined to prove a point (and drop legal) i would just drop extension 2, that's how disappointed i am.. and no not even in my mark, just in myself.. cause i dont like self-deception and that's all ive been doing since i started the damn thing... or before that, but this has just brought it all out...

Argg what do you people care? (if there are actually people who read this crap) it doesnt matter to you! and now im being a hypocrit cause i said that school didnt matter to me.. well it doesn't, in the long run, but when i convince myself that i want to do something well, it does matter to me... I was so excited about this... I always said that if i could drop as many subjects as i like then id have my four units of english and ancient.. well now im not sure that i want to do ancient (or that im any good at it)... before this year i would have kept maths only now i suck at that too and my marks are just going to get worse and worse until people ask me why i dont work as hard as i used to.. well NEWS FLASH i work more than i used to!! I had NEVER worked before this year and now i do, but whats the point? Im doing this all to please other people, and for a while i deluded myself (again damnit) into believing that maybe it wouldnt be so bad and i could enjoy it.. well i dont! I enjoy my 2unit and 3unit english, thats IT! Even getting Raphael back for hospitality hasnt changed much...ill still do crap.. garrr i hate school......

"Now, now, don't be so melodramatic." that's what my mum tells me every time i complain about school... ironic... very ironic...

I'm sorry, this is a very angry and whingey post, so ill just stop now before the sad people who read this think that i am definately insane (and possibly dangerous).. goodbye

weird movie thing from wilsons blog.

X off any of the films that you have seen. If you check more than 70 it makes you a movie whore.

( )Napoleon Dynamite
( )White Noise
( )White Oleander
( )Anger Management
()50 First Dates
( )Jason X
(X)Scream
(X)Scream 2
(X)Scream 3
()Scary Movie
()Scary Movie 2
( )Scary Movie 3
()American Pie
()American Pie 2
()American Wedding
(X)Harry Potter
()Harry Potter 2
()Harry Potter 3
(X)Resident Evil I- Did I see one or two?? not sure!
()Resident Evil 2
(X)The Wedding Singer
( )Little Black Book
()The Village
( )Donnie Darko
(X)Lilo & Stitch
(X)Finding Nemo
(X)Finding Neverland
( )13 Ghosts
(X)Signs
(X)The Grinch
( )Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( )White Chicks
( )Butterfly Effect
( )13 going on 30
()I,Robot
()Dodge ball
( )Universal Soldier
( )A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( )Along Came A Spider
()Deep impact
( )KingPin
(X)Never Been Kissed
(X)Meet The Parents
(X)Meet The Fockers
( )Eight Crazy Nights
()A Cinderella Story
( )The Terminal
()The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( )Passport to Paris
( )Dumb & Dumber
( )Dumb & Dumberer
()Final Destination
()Final Destination 2
(X)Halloween
( )The Ring
( )The Ring 2
()Harold & Kumar (white castle)
()Practical Magic
(X)Chicago
( )Ghost Ship
( )From Hell
( )Hellboy
(X)Secret Window
( )I Am Sam
()The Whole Nine Yards
( )The Whole Ten Yards
(X)The Day After Tomorrow
( )Child's Play
( )Bride of Chucky
(X)Ten Things I Hate About You
(X)Just Married
( )Gothika
( )A Nightmare on Elm Street
( )Sixteen Candles
( )Bad Boys
( )Bad Boys 2
( )Joy Ride
( )Seven (SE7EN)
()Oceans Eleven
(X)Oceans Twelve
()Identity
( )Lone Star
()Bedazzled
( )Predator
( )Predator II
()Independence Day
( )Cujo
( )A Bronx Tale
( )Darkness Falls
( )Christine
(X)ET
( )Children of the Corn
( )My Boss' daughter
(X)Maid in Manhattan
( )Frailty
( )Best bet
(X)How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
()She's All That
()Calendar Girls
( )Sideways
()Mars Attack
( )Event Horizon
(X)Ever after
(X)Forrest Gump
( )Big Trouble in Little China
(X)X-men 1- i think!
()X-men 2
( )Jeepers Creepers
( )Jeepers Creepers 2
(X)Catch Me If You Can
( )The Others
()Freaky Friday
(X )Reign of Fire
()Cruel Intentions
()Cruel Intentions 2
( )Cruel Intentions 3
(X)The Hot Chick
()Swimfan
( )Miracle
( )Old School
( )Ray
( )The Notebook
( )K-Pax
(X)Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(X)Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(X)Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
()A Walk to Remember
( )Boogeyman
( )Hitch
( )Back Door Sluts 9
()The Fifth Element
()Star Wars Episode I
()Star wars episode II
()Star Wars Episode IV
()Star wars episode V
()Star wars episode VI
( )Troop Beverly Hills
( )Swimming with Sharks
( )Trainspotting
( )People under the stairs
( )Blue Velvet
(X)Sound of music
(X)Parent Trap
( )The Burbs
( )SLC Punk
( )Meet Joe Black
( )Wild girls
(x)A Clockwork Orange-a little x cause ive seen half of it!
( )The Order
()Spiderman
()Spiderman2
( )Amelie
(X)Mean Girls
(X)Shrek
(X)Shrek 2
(X)The Incredibles
( )Collateral
( )The Fast & The Furious
( )2 Fast 2 Furious
( )Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow
(X)Closer
()The Sixth Sense
( )Artificial intelligence
(X)Love actually
( )Shutter
( )Ella Enchanted
(X)Princess Diaries 1
( )Princess Diaries 2
( )The Graduate
( )Constantine
( )Million Dollar Baby
( )Boston Beatdown

wow 41 (and a half) im impressed, i didnt think id get more than ten!!! anyway computer is screwing up so ill put the rest of what i have to say on another post so my poor little computer doesnt go into overload and blow up!!!!
()School of Rock